The Best I Can Do
12 Jan 2012, Orphans, track 3
An autobiographical song about procrastination.
today was the day that i finally decided
to sit down and get this thing done
and the night that i work 'till the sunrise already begun
and i can't help but wonder if i have been secretly
aiming for this from the start
but tomorrow's the end and i haven't got time for reflection
no matter the fact that i have to outrun
that i have to outrun
and i'm sorry for those who believed and depended on me
i am sorry that i am not everything that i can be
everything that i can be
day after day lost to pointless distraction
my mornings are filled with intenser inaction
the deadline looms near and time slips away
there's no work getting done
and i'm praying for just one more day
one more day
hey hey
one fucking day
i can not act like today hasn't happened before
and i wouldn't be better with time if i had a bit more
if i had a bit more
shaking from caffiene, i look at the time
but my curtains are drawn so i can't tell if i'm
still in morning or evening, six could mean anything
utterly lost
i am praying for just one more day
telling myself it's the best i can do
and knowing full well that it's simply not true
i can promise myself
this will not happen again
i am powering through under terrible stress
the words make no sense and the phrasing's a mess
so i promise myself
this will not happen again
this will not happen again
the paperwork's signed so i carry on my merry way
ignoring the fact that the fact that i made it on time doesn't make it okay